536 Self Esteem

To someone who has been well accustomed to the idea of self reproach and of sometimes intropunitive, which by the way isn't always a bad custom, it's difficult to understand the idea of self esteem.  In other words, it's the state that one cannot be satisfied with oneself, one feels too modest to praise oneself with being fully aware of how insufficient the one gets so far and how much tasks and challenges are there to conquer. Again, it's not a bad idea to stir the spirit. 

But there should be another view on oneself. Self confidence and modesty can exist together, and we have our own value that others don't see. We can treat ourselves in a way others cannot even if they wish to. These things are so hard to put into words and I kind of feel very awkward to talk things like this on a public blog, but it's something important, and something so many writers, creators and journalists have been trying to for centuries.